Grass on the other side

Humans..
nvr satisfied..

Choice A and B..
After choosing A.. u will regret why not B
U will always think of what outcome will it be if i have taken choice B.
Weird..
But true.

Think the best choice is...
go with the flow.
Be grateful for what u have.

Anyway.. gona take every opportunity that comes.
Dunno if it will turn out good.
Gotta face reality.

Wont die so eaily..
Still got lotsa things to face.

Suay...

Regarding the post below...
Its no longer valid.
I dunno why....
The interview went well. And they confirm my starting date to be on 28th jan.
But they called the next day again and said they dun need a temp anymore.
Should i cry or beat up someone!
Bloody hell... Like very fun sia.

Anyway... wat the hell
Its just a 3mths offer
Maybe its a sign that I look for a full FULL time job.

BUT>>>
Im going for an interview tmr at Yellowpages!!
Hopefully everything goes well. Nervous... I really hate interviews.
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Last night something bad happened..
My mum was knocked down from behind by a boy riding a bicycle.
he was rushing forhis music class.

My mum was bang from her back and she fell flat down.
Her glasses was broken.. her eye got a little scratch.. but her teeth and gum tho' not bleeding is still hurting. Her upper lip is swollen.
She was alone when that happen.. and come back home.
She was suppose to be buying some stuff.

But clever Mum managed to find that boy at the music school near our house.
And ask for his parents.. But the teacher called up his house and realized that the boy's parents are in America. He's staying with ah gong ang his elder sis, only 9yrs old.
The boy is 7yrs old i guess. Th boy was crying. Guess he was scared too..

What to do... is a SUay accident.
My mum is just worried that the swelling wont heal by my bro's wedding.

I just everything bad will just disappear from my family...
Super suay lately!
Argh!

CNY soon... Must heng heng wor..

New Job

After complaining so much...
I got a job.
Its a 3 mths temp job tho' at The Body Shop.
The position is for Visual Merchandiser.
My duty is actually to make use of Indesign and Photoshop to do up their book for Autumm/Winter Collection.
So I have to get their stuff from Illustrator into Indesign..
Shouldn't be a problem.. Done that before

Feeling happy but also worried..
Happy cos of a new job.. Good pay..
Not that happy.. Cos its only 3mths, new job, new place, new pple.. give me the jitters
But overall still excited. Im gona tell myself im gona do a great job.

The experience could give me good feedback and hopefully get me a better job after 3 mths.

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Dad went to the Doc's today.
didnt do any chemo.
Doc says to start again after CNY.
Anyway, after a change of medicine for the chemo, Dad's situation still remains the same.
Stable but the cancer is not showing any damn signs of clearing up.
I think he's feeling rather down now.

Its like... imagine urself being so helpless.. But u know something in ur body is going to bring u down one day. And u dunno when's that day..

He nvr tell me that... I just kinda feel it..

feeling lost..... super lost

Feeling like shit lately...
Doing nothing in life
I just need to complain..

Sent out several resumes but none reply..
There's one reply.. that says my work ain't what they are looking for.
what the hell am i supposed to do?
im wondering whether am i really able to get into the design industry.....
My works seems useless..

Guess i need to come up with more good works for my portfolio.
If not how am i gona face those big CD in the ad agency..
I dun even dare to give them a call to show my works.
Dun even think they wana see them anyway.

Im very pessimistic now..
Totally wasted.
I need some motivation to go on..
im not going to break down. =)

anything that doesnt kills me...
makes me stronger

Sick of life..........

Things aren't going well...
I cant get a job...
My mind is filled with negative thoughts...
Just feeling super unmotivated...
CRAP~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!