Sad.. will try to be happy

My dad don't seem to be doing well.
The pain i see him go through everyday, esp these few days when his tummy begins to hurt.
It's hurting so much that i have to give him morphine to stop the pain.

He's has been coping well with the stomach cancer since july last year.
He's really strong.
Imagine urself going to the hospital every other week, getting injected with chemicals u dunno will heal or harm u. Seeing nurses drawing blood from u. The jabs are so painful. I cant imagine my self doing it.
It was frightening.

He must be feeling very down now.
He told my my mum he felt useless due to the cancer.
I guess as the man of the house, u would hope to be the support of ur wife and children at all times. Now he's losing it to the disease.

Though my mum always nag about my dad, I know she's really worried.
She came to my room, and ask, " are u prepared for the worst. Ok anot? wont sad rite.."
Of cos i say it will be fine.

I just hope that my dad could be strong. And be happy now.
Im glad i did him proud by getting a good job.
He even put up my pic of the umbrella in his room. lol

Tired...

Had a new desktop today!
Yippee.. the monitor is huge and keyboard is new.
They changed it cos the RAM is higher, better for graphics.
Happy!

We will be moving to a new office in June.. But i kinda like the spacious, no walls concept now inside the straits times dept.
It's huge and u can see everyone.
Nothing to hide. i love that.
Will see how it turns out in June.



See that pic.. lol
Its in The Sunday Times.
I was a model for a few minutes for this pic.
In reality... i wasn't holding an umbrella but a tripod stand.
See! the power of photoshop..

Miss-Understood...

As always... no one understands me..
everyone things I'm immatured, spend money like nobody's business, party, go out and play.

WHatever i do is nvr right. F!
Im really fed-up and disappointed.

My bro sms in the morning to pay up my CPF study loan.
And contribute more to the family. At least i dun take money from them anymore.

Which i did.. I gave them money when i got my salary.
HE's always telling me to this and that. I know. I have plans but everone just thinks im spending all my salary away.
Which i'm not.

I just got my 1st pay. I just wana buy stuff which i need myself.
Im still gotta start buying insurance.
Im still starting to handle my finance.
Its not like im earning a fixed income for a yr or so.

My bf says i should not go out so late and spend money on cabs home and stuff.
I know! But its not like every day of the week im doing that.
he doesnt like me to go out late too much anyway.

I haven met my frens cos i wasnt working before, and have limited funds. Now with the pay at least i can catch up with a few close ones. Meeting my frens are the happiest time i ever have.

Whatever i do. Everyone thinks im selfish. No plans for the future.
Why is it when i wana do something for myself its always not right.

I dun wana cry but i cant control the tears.

Great weekend

Last week was a great week with frens!

Thursday:
Meet waihan, evon and zhong de for some ktv-ing.
Haven seen them seen i start work.

(bloody shit! my screen turned yellow!! My monitor is dying.....)

Anyway, Had a great time with them!
Somethings relationships among frens do change..
But frens will still be frens. Just hope everyone is happy that all we can hope for. =)

Friday:
A very eventful day!!!!

Joanne manges to know someone from Asiaon and got us into Singapore Fashion festival.
The show that day was " Sex-y in the City".
Male models were strutting the runaway with just underwear on!!!
Whee!!! Cool!! We chose the right show to go.. lol
I love Galiano's collection. Really different.. his style. Always expect something unique out of him.

Den we headed down to Raffles City for the MyPaper Executive Look contest.
Yip Ren Kai was the winner. Water-polo player. We called him the Speedo guy. lol

I like the gal, Kelly. She's really pretty and i love her way she speaks and protrayed herself . very confident. tho' she didnt get anything in the end. But i think she's a cool gal.

After the show Joanne and 1 had dinner at PRego. My 1st time there. Pretty ex. $25 for a carbonara. And i cant finish it. Too creamy, not to my liking.
I still prefer Pasta Cafe anytime! lol

After that we headed sown to Zouk. The straits time people were there. I dunno any of them only Sujin but anyway, its good to meet some new people, since im in the working world now.
More the merrier..

Saturday:
After such a long time, finally i can shop and indulge myself for awhile.
went shopping with Serene at far east.

Got 2 pairs of heels at Heatwave. One rounded pumps and one pointed, both black. Love them!
Got a skirt at BYSI for $39. there are really nice skirts there, all around 433-$39. Pretty reasonable, for the quality and the fabric used.
And i bought a top from The Box at Isetan for $15 discounted!! Before, it was $35.90.
lol I got a great bargain that day!

Something Different!!

Tmr MyPaper will be something special from the normal paper's front page.
We have something fun to work with today.
Ed and I came out with a design that incoporate the font page banner and poster together in one graphic.

We made use of a shopping bag as a whole graphic and pulled the banner and poster together as one alothugh thee are 2 Stories.
Its something special and a great idea.
Im really glad we came up with a concept that makes newspaper design more fun to play with.

Everyone was very happy with the graphic.
SO watch out for 2nd APril's MYPAPER!!!!

Pete said he will try to enter this graphic in to the Newscom Awards held at SPH. Hopefully we can win something!